What’s there to say?
I’m nineteen years old, going on six. I’m still afraid of the dark and leaving my closet door open at night. My full name is Cassandra Emilie Beauvoir-Hobbs. I have multiple personalities in my mind that are constantly at war, and constantly in opposition with one another. You can call me Cassie. I’ve got OCD, EDNOS and some other problems in my head. The chemicals in my body are fucked, and I’m forbidden from having caffeine. I love coffee and drink it anyways. I take pills to keep me stable, I write and draw and paint to keep from snapping. I love smoking, and vodka is usually my drink of choice - but I’m becoming a fan of wine these days with fondness for Rose. I’m an odd person, and I love odd things. I collect bandaids, and shop compulsively. I own a lot of things with Hello Kitty on them, and enough books that I have a small library back at home. I love children’s toys and colouring books and silly simple things. I’m addicted to the internet and books. My best friend lives in California, and though we are now allowed to speak to one another, I miss terribly our late night conversations and falling asleep texting. I tried to run away in December, and instead spent the weekend in a psych ward. I’m still constantly defending the person who kept me sane for over a year, and have few friends living in the same country (and those who are still live far).I like girls more, and currently a certain one has my heart. I go to school in Montreal, majoring in Studio Art and Art History, with a minor in Interdisciplinary Studies in Sexuality. I like arts and math, and hate sports. I’m a clutz, but a dancer. I’m an odd person, but not anything special. I get sad alot and have a lot of fears, and I’m terrified of forgetting moments and faces. Slytherin. Disney World is one of the best places in the world, and if I’m willing to share it with you, you are special. If I’m in a relationship with you and still willing to go with you…well…you should really feel special.I’ve got a lot to learn and a lot of growing up still to do. But I’m finally starting to understand that I need to say fuck the world and live my life for me, because no one else is going to find happiness for me.
Sorry for annoyingly rambling.
